As the COVID 19 pandemic spread globally, the experiences of loss were compounded by personal loss. Through this time of collective and individual grieving I set out to “traverse” the experience and figure my “perezhivanie” or lived emotional experience, through the materiality of mark making and entanglements with people, place, and art making. Art making framed by the “massive and microscopic” reflective prompts provided the opportunity for interventions into the medicalized and clinical world of hospitals and COVID 19, enacting beauty within a time of global, local, and personal grieving.